I have been putting off writing this because as it all floats around in my head, I'm not sure how to process it.... As 2012 came to a close, my grandma passed away. The grandma that lived far away, but was always close in my heart and prayers. The grandma that I kept saying I would write to again like I used to. And that I would send that picture of all her great grandkids that I had planned to send her for Christmas. I didn't get it sent for Christmas and my plan was to get it to her this week. She went to be with Jesus on Saturday. She didn't get to see that picture...she never got to meet most of her great grandkids. It really tears me up inside, I've had a hard time letting go of it. These past few days I've felt regret....
I wish I could say that I've figured it out. But, I haven't. Sometimes life is hard. I hate regret...and I don't say hate much. I'm not usually one to regret, but this I do.
My heart hurts and there have been lots of tears. Ty tells me it's ok to mourn...to be sad.... I am sad.
I know that she is ok now. That she's with our Jesus.
But, I'm still sorry that I didn't do more.
I wish I could have said goodbye. I love you, GG.
4 comments:
i'm so sorry. i know how much it hurts to lose a grandparent. i'll be keeping you and your family in my prayers.
i'm so sorry for your loss!i will pray that you will be easy on yourself in the days to come. i know that your grandma would not want you to feel regrets. i'm sure she knew of your love for her!
Oh, I'm so sorry to hear this. Love to you!
Steph
Hugs, my friend. I know how hard this is. I lost my beloved grandma years ago and there is still pain when I think of her.
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